Moving on up

Figured i should really post something here, as I havent in agggeeeeees.

Im going to university in 6 weeks and 2 days.
Im going to be at London Metropolitan studying Music and Media Management.

Its funny how life always come in full circle, isnt it? Was born in London, and lived there for a short amount of time. Ive always known i will end up back there, and sure enough i have. Its like I always knew I would move out of home at 19...which I am.

Moving out. It doesnt appear to be as big a deal as it perhaps should be. Im rarely at home as it is, and I feel a little out of place. I never really settled in in Brighton. i thought of allt he places in the UK brighton is where I would fit in best. And maybe i would of had i moved here at 14 or something...but ive just never got in to it. In think perhaps because i have always known i wont be living here long, i never let myself become fully integrated...A shame perhaps, but then again, i met the people I wanted to meet, and im quite happy with that.

Panicing about getting all the stuff i need for uni. Ive gone self catered, as i couldnt bear the thought of not having the choice over my own food. Im also skint. tried to get a job, but it proved more difficlt then at first thought...and times running out. so now im just going to get my HUGE overdraft, and live off that til i get a job in london. Over the moon as ive just found out my halls have 1 meg broadband. hehe.

I was thinking a lot about the music im in to now, and how i would never of listened to it a few years ago. I also used to think that I couldnt possibly be friends with anyone with a largely differing music taste...but then my best friend is a big reggae fan. Im 20 years old soon. And yet i feel ive grown more in the past 6 years then I ever could. How much mentally older can I get? i feel about 30 already. haha.

I love seeing the ways ive changed, and how my music taste i think really reflects that. Yet its quite difficult at times, as the more i reach out to try and fit in with my age group, the more i find why it just wont work. Although there are a few people of my age in to a lot of the same artists as myself, when ever i go to a gig of some one i love, im the youngest in the room...This concerns me in that I hope i find someone, of my own age, or at least less than 7 years older that appreciates what I do. Not that it matters hugely, ecause as ive mentioned, my best friend and i have hardly any shared musical interests. heh

anyway, ill keep ya updated whilst im at uni.

over and out.

Melanie