I got good at feeling bad

I wish I could tell my friends how much they mean to me.  Sometimes I think I don't give enough, and im so terrified...I don't know of what. Maybe I do. Maybe I just don't want to say.

Just wish I could be my self with people more.  I'm probably not that bad a person underneath this facade I put on.

I don't know what I'm talking about. I'm drunk.